Tomorrow is my mom's 14th anniversary of the day she died. I really never understood why they call it an anniversary...Still think they need to come up with a better word to explain events like that.
Anyway, So I am driving to get Kala and go to her grave. Although I dont want to go anymore. Im almost thinking about making up an excuse to not got.
But Im going. Blah
I really dont feel like driving is the main thing...but I cant not got because of that. I would feel so selfish.
So it doens't look like I am going to see him this Wednesday. Im actually disappointed. I dont know why exactly. I died my hair dark Saturday and was going to look really good and different. So I guess I was just hoping to see him so he would have to see me. I really didn't want to see him. Is that terrible?
Is it terrible that I dont want him to be happy? Is it terrible that im mad that when he sees my family they are nice to him? Is it terrible that I want his little girlfriend to fail out of school?
Yes, I suppose it is. But I really dont care.
-K
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